You know the feeling when you’re having fun and a really nice time and then your blood deciceds to do the thing where your sugar levels are really really high and you feel like shit and no one understands how it feels and the worst of all there’s people who THINK they know how you feel but they fucking don’t and they say something stupid as then you just end up crying alone in your room and feeling so sick you wanna die
FUCKING A ISN’T IT? Cc:
When I’m fine my blog’s kind of cute and classy and when I’m sad it’s like a one big suicide note and you can always tell when it’s been a while ‘cause then it’s just half naked girls all over
My parents are yelling at me for being sad ‘cause two of the most important people in my life tried to kill themselves. Another one is surely going to try again, other one had liver and brain damage and lost most of her emotional connections to people and some of her memories.
”Anybody would be pissed of if they had to see someone frowning and crying at their house all the fucking week”
AND HE FUCKING KNOWS WHAT’S HAPPENED.
Also, that I’m depressed and most of the time I can just manage to hide it.
Gosh, I hate living here.
I feel things in a big way. When I’m sad, it qualifies as depression. When I’m happy I dance and I sing and I smile at strangers without realizing. I fall for people easily; it doesn’t take much to get me head over heals for someone. My feelings are huge, always. I’ve been wondering about how it is even possible. My dreams are big and I feel huge empathy for people I don’t even know. Making someone, anyone smile makes my day. But my feelings are like a roller coaster, I go up fast and I go up high, and then I fall down hard at the speed of light. Many times a day. And it’s just now that I’m realizing I’m actually totally okay with it. It’ll make my heart break uncountable times, but it’ll also make it easier for me to love and to be loved in return. It’ll make me sad, so incredibly, body-aching sad, but it also makes me smile uncontrollably when I see a kid blowing bubbles or when there’s a funny shaped cloud on the sky or when It’s raining at night and all the city lights look even prettier than normally. It makes me do impulsive decisions with unpredictable results. It’s far from safe but hey, I’ve always loved adventure.